As I lay on your chest,
Watching you sleep,
Listening closely,
I hear your heart beart.
Sleeping so sweetly,
Breathing so deeply,
Staring with a shine in my eye,
Ready to strike at a given time.
Blood is rushing through your veins,
Being restrained is the ultimate pain,
Every beat, I want to bite again, harder.
My body is numb, I sink like an anchor
I know the sweet "consequence" if I choose to give in.
Maybe it would relieve my insanity within.
Fighting for control
Of my weak and foreign soul,
I choose to hurt myself,
A bite to cure oneself.
Keep in mind I love you,
My heart's yours to keep,
I overcame my pain
Just to
Is this what a true nightmare is like? Wondering if the one you love... loves someone else? I try to trust you, I do, but do I trust her? Walking down a dark and lonely path surrounded by my thoughts... being strangled and stabbed. I just stopped running... I let those thoughts stab and cut me all they want. Too weak to utter a word, I wear a smile on my face and say "It doesn't hurt a bit." Blood running down my face and onto the floor, maybe if you look a little closer you'll see how broken I truly am.
I looked out the windows on the third floor of school.
Such a long view from the roof to the ground.
The warm, air blew in, the windows wide open.
It's so easy, I thought.
I stood staring at the wide, open ceiling to floor window.
All I have to do is step out and it will be over.
The only thing illuminating the dark hall was two fish tanks.
I walked silently back to my classroom, thoughts still present.
But they're over now.
Who would've thought I'd be so glad I made the choice to walk away?
Who would've thought such a plain looking girl would feel so lucky she could scream?
Who would've thought she'd feel loved and wanted?
Who wo
After 12 years
I was waiting for the phone to ring.
Waiting for my prince charming
With the long shiny hair and a smile on his face
Willing to take my hand
Willing to tell me everythings alright
After 12 years, it never happened.
After 13 years
I watched my new friends walk by.
Each having a hand to hold
A loving soul that's always by their side
I could not hold back jealousy.
I could not hold back the smallest spite.
After 13 years, I hadn't learned patience.
After 14 years
I see you stand close by.
I've let you into my past.
I can see you in my future.
Yet I stand so innocently
As if you'd ever talk to me.
Now my hope is
Every word you say, every move you make
Like pins they stab me, each making their mark.
Every syllable stabs them deeper.
Soon they're only scars,
Nothing but a memory of what was.
As I lay on your chest,
Watching you sleep,
Listening closely,
I hear your heart beart.
Sleeping so sweetly,
Breathing so deeply,
Staring with a shine in my eye,
Ready to strike at a given time.
Blood is rushing through your veins,
Being restrained is the ultimate pain,
Every beat, I want to bite again, harder.
My body is numb, I sink like an anchor
I know the sweet "consequence" if I choose to give in.
Maybe it would relieve my insanity within.
Fighting for control
Of my weak and foreign soul,
I choose to hurt myself,
A bite to cure oneself.
Keep in mind I love you,
My heart's yours to keep,
I overcame my pain
Just to
Is this what a true nightmare is like? Wondering if the one you love... loves someone else? I try to trust you, I do, but do I trust her? Walking down a dark and lonely path surrounded by my thoughts... being strangled and stabbed. I just stopped running... I let those thoughts stab and cut me all they want. Too weak to utter a word, I wear a smile on my face and say "It doesn't hurt a bit." Blood running down my face and onto the floor, maybe if you look a little closer you'll see how broken I truly am.
I looked out the windows on the third floor of school.
Such a long view from the roof to the ground.
The warm, air blew in, the windows wide open.
It's so easy, I thought.
I stood staring at the wide, open ceiling to floor window.
All I have to do is step out and it will be over.
The only thing illuminating the dark hall was two fish tanks.
I walked silently back to my classroom, thoughts still present.
But they're over now.
Who would've thought I'd be so glad I made the choice to walk away?
Who would've thought such a plain looking girl would feel so lucky she could scream?
Who would've thought she'd feel loved and wanted?
Who wo
After 12 years
I was waiting for the phone to ring.
Waiting for my prince charming
With the long shiny hair and a smile on his face
Willing to take my hand
Willing to tell me everythings alright
After 12 years, it never happened.
After 13 years
I watched my new friends walk by.
Each having a hand to hold
A loving soul that's always by their side
I could not hold back jealousy.
I could not hold back the smallest spite.
After 13 years, I hadn't learned patience.
After 14 years
I see you stand close by.
I've let you into my past.
I can see you in my future.
Yet I stand so innocently
As if you'd ever talk to me.
Now my hope is
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Not a very good day, in fact, it was a shit-ass-fuck day. I was just in a terrible mood, I failed 2 of the 3 finals I took today, I got an MRI (I'll go into that in the next paragraph), and I think I had a psychotic attack.
So, the MRI. It started out fine and dandy, but then I started feeling all uneasy and trapped, it was dark, and nobody was in the room. The machine was loud as fuck (that's what she said) and I only had this little mirror thing to look at the nurse that was looking at my brain behind an enclosed bulletproof window (what, was the machine gonna explode or something?). I almost passed out when I started feeling lighthea
This weeks gonna fucking suck, I hate finals. But at least right after the reward is A 3 MONTH VACATION!! YEEAAAHHH!! *ahem* So the last few minutes I actually have a life, I'm gonna do a survey. :3
1. So, what did you do all day?:
Waste 7 hours of my life in school
2. What is the most expensive thing you've bought recently?
I dunno, I spent 40+ dollars on an outfit yesterday :P
3. Last concert (or show) you attended:
Bullet for my Valentine!
4. Coolest thing you've gotten in the mail lately:
A card from Ian lol
5. Discribe your favorite artical of clothing:
A corset!
6. Last video game played:
Some parkour game on Xbox
7. How ma